A favourite quote and a way by which to approach life.

Today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday.

Saturday, 3 November 2007

Requiem aeternam

I have some friends whose youngest son is now head chorister at Durham Cathedral, and last night I went with them to hear him/the choir sing Faure's Requiem in a communion service for All Souls Day. It was lovely, and amazing as the choir had only been practicing for a week. It was lovely to have the requiem as part of the service, rather than just as a concert as is most usual these days, and it was a great opportunity to think about those people we've known and loved, but have died. There was an opportunity also to light a candle in memory of those who have died so I lit one for my friend Laura who killed herself in July.

Laura was a truly lovely person, highly intelligent and incredibly gifted musically. She had so much going for her, but was sadly unable to see the good in herself and had suffered from terrible depression for many years. She was someone who would go out on a limb for a friend - she would do anything she could for anyone - but tragically was unable to see that she too was worthy (and more worthy than many in the world) of all the love, support, help and good things that came her way ... although she was continually let down by the mental health services, which did nothing for her confidence or feelings of self-worth. Laura is greatly missed by many, and I don't think she would have believed you if you'd told her before she died about how many people would attend her funeral and memorial service; about how the Laura-shaped hole that's been left in the world is gaping and cannot be filled by anyone or anything else; or about how many tears have been shed by so many people all over the world for the loss of such a wonderful and amazing young woman.

I hope and pray that Laura is finally at peace. I prayed with all my heart for her in the cathedral yesterday evening, and although some (non-christians) may say it was in my imagination or is wishful thinking, I felt as though Laura had at last found her peace and was at rest. If only she could have found that peace here on Earth ...

Rest peacefully Laura.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am so with you with you on this post Becky. Laura was truly amazing, and my one biggest regrets about my absence from BB is not having communicated with her before she died.
I think she has found peace. I am certain that God has healed her wounds (both physical and mental) and that one day we will get the chance to be with her again.
Take care beautiful

isis xxx

Wanda said...

Hi Becky,

Found you!

Just poped over to see if there were updates to your blog, obviously not DUH!! Wonder if you can blog from HDU?

Take care and sending shovels, hard hats, diggers and plenty of men at work signs.


Wanda
Wanda

Emily H said...

I know you're in hospital now, and can't read this (although I am enjoying our Insomniacs United text conversation!) but I just wanted to say that I've really enjoyed your blog entries so far... carry on blogging so the world can understand what it's like for us living with brittle asthma.

I am so sorry for the loss of your friend Laura; I'm sure she is at peace, and I will say a prayer for her, as well as you, tonight.

Love
Em H
xxxx

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