A favourite quote and a way by which to approach life.

Today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday.

Saturday, 10 May 2008

Splat alert

I think the big splat is very nearly upon me. I get the feeling that I'm not going to last much longer and will be in hospital within the next 24 to 48 hours. This is not a good feeling. I've had the most horrendous night for various reasons so I'm exhausted to start with. All I can do is hope that I have the energy to get through the fast-approaching crisis when it comes.

I hate this. I know it's nearly here. I know I have the fight for my life nearly upon me yet again. I know I have to summon a mass of energy I don't feel I have from somewhere. I could cry ... but I won't, because I need to preserve what energy I have and I know that if I let the tears come then the upset will only speed things up and worsen the situation. I hate this.

3 comments:

sidhe said...

bless you honey

Esther said...

Hi Becky,

Sorry to hear that you are feeling so rough, get well soon.

Wanda

BeckyG said...

Thank you Sidhe and Wanda :o) I'm feeling much better now and I got home yesterday afternoon (Monday). I'm still very tired, but I'm breathing more easily. :o)